i have to be with you
i was so crazy sometimes because i never knew what real love really felt like
and now i do
and i realized that i need you
i always thought shit i done fucked up a million times maybe thats just what i do
but i ran across this
No matter how far you've gone down the wrong road, turn back.
-Turkish proverb
and im turning back around from the west coast janine
i love you i need you i cant live without you
please believe me that i wont do you wrong
i love you forever
i was so crazy sometimes because i never knew what real love really felt like
and now i do
and i realized that i need you
i always thought shit i done fucked up a million times maybe thats just what i do
but i ran across this
No matter how far you've gone down the wrong road, turn back.
-Turkish proverb
and im turning back around from the west coast janine
i love you i need you i cant live without you
please believe me that i wont do you wrong
i love you forever
i never realized what it was like to cry yourself to sleep every night until these past two days
please dont give up on me
i love you
please dont give up on me
i love you
FROM ANNA:
AND ALL THE TEXTS AND CALLS. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK. IS HE TELLING HOLLY AND EMILY THESE THINGS TOO? I DONT KNOW WHAT TO BELIEVE. I DONT KNOW IF THIS IS WHAT HE REALLY FEELS. IM CONFUSED. BEYOND BELIEF.
I know you probably don't want to hear this and I know people are telling you otherwise (and usually I wouldn't get into my friend's buisness) but chad really needs you.
We talked a little tonight and he told me what happened and that would be a reason to be mad at someone about but the man neeeeds you.
Here are just a little of the things he told me:
Dickin Yarmouth:
how do you go to sleep if all you can do is know you really just left the one person that ever made me feel undescribeable
and you just realized it
Dickin Yarmouth:
we were perfect together i just couldnt stop drinking enough to prove myself
and now im ready but i cant without her
Dickin Yarmouth:
anna i thought i was in love in high school with cameron, i thought i was in love with holly, but this is way more ive never felt completely empty inside ive never felt like hoping i dont wake up in the morning.
In all the years that I've known him he's never felt this strongly about someone. Sometimes people are worth another chance and he's definitely got his faults, but everyone does.
Even if you hate me for saying all this or don't want to talk to me or listen or anything I just had to tell you.
He's a great guy, you know this. Idk.
Just think about it?
I hate seeing my friends heartbroken especially when I know that it can be fixed.
sorry for butting in or whatnot, but I like you as well and I've never seen him happier than when he was with you doll.
-Anna.
We talked a little tonight and he told me what happened and that would be a reason to be mad at someone about but the man neeeeds you.
Here are just a little of the things he told me:
Dickin Yarmouth:
how do you go to sleep if all you can do is know you really just left the one person that ever made me feel undescribeable
and you just realized it
Dickin Yarmouth:
we were perfect together i just couldnt stop drinking enough to prove myself
and now im ready but i cant without her
Dickin Yarmouth:
anna i thought i was in love in high school with cameron, i thought i was in love with holly, but this is way more ive never felt completely empty inside ive never felt like hoping i dont wake up in the morning.
In all the years that I've known him he's never felt this strongly about someone. Sometimes people are worth another chance and he's definitely got his faults, but everyone does.
Even if you hate me for saying all this or don't want to talk to me or listen or anything I just had to tell you.
He's a great guy, you know this. Idk.
Just think about it?
I hate seeing my friends heartbroken especially when I know that it can be fixed.
sorry for butting in or whatnot, but I like you as well and I've never seen him happier than when he was with you doll.
-Anna.
i know you and i arent best friends or anything and i do not know your whole situation. but if your anything like me you are gonna do what you want to do regaurdless, but i also like getting advise from other people. people just looking in...i read all your blogs on here. and you seemed soo happy with him. but i am also just an outsider looking in. and i know thats a big difference than being you. because you know what really happened and you know how you really feel, and i dont. But i have been in 3 relationships "long relationships" in the past 5 years. one was 2 years. after i moved in i thought everything was great...but he started lying about doing drugs, going clubbing, and he started controlling my life. that ended VERY bad. then i dated another guy for almost a year. and the whole time he controlled me..and the physical abuse was terrible...to the point where he tried to kill me. and it took me Moving away from him to totally get away. i had to hide, and change all my information. then i was single for about 4 months and i met Another guy. To be honest i think he was my 1st love...everything was AMAZING in the begining...then about 6 months into the relationship he started getting into drugs bad!! being really mean to me all the time to the point it was unbearable. he wasnt physical until the end because by the time he and i started dating. i always stood up for myself. and i wasnt gonna go down with out a fight. & when he did hit me. i fought back. but you see there is a pattern here...Drugs & abuse. It took me a long time to realize, this is not my fault. i just got with the wrong people. and ended up being happier by myself. I always say. dont follow your heart because its meant to be broken "thats just a way of life" follow your gut! its always right. So sit down and if u have to write a pros and cons list....what do u get out of being with chad? Happiness Wise. and which ever list is longer...go from there. you dont have to do any of this..i just like giving people advise, in hopes..something i say might help. just do what makes you happy. for you! and nobody else.
ReplyDeletethis is the last thing that i'm going to say about this matter, because i know you're going to do whatever you want...
ReplyDeletebut i've been there before, heard the exact same things.
even recently.
and i really thought he was going to change.
but he does the same stuff over and over again.
and as soon as he thinks he's losing your interest, that's when he comes back in.
it's not my say in who you are with, i just want you to know that i've been there with him.
thank you angel, im going to do that right now. but i have no paper or pen, so im going to do it on here.
ReplyDeleteand holly, i know he hurt you, even worse than he hurt me because you guys have a kid, and were together longer than me and him were. and im sorry that he did that to you. noone deserves to get there heart broken over and over and over again. and thats how its been with me and him.
i know im going to go back to him. i know it. and im dumb as fuck for it. i just cant say no to him. maybe its cause im young, but he says hes going to go to rehab, and change. i guess i just want to go back to him to see if he actually does get help.