I should not play poker, when im high.

I just didnt give a fuck last night. I went all in, on crappy cards just so i could go sit with chad. but im glad i did. we talked all night. about everything. about ryann, jobs, us, atlanta, just everything.

i think we understand eachother alot better now.

I get way to jealous of things i shouldnt be jealous of. i have so much trust in myself, i dont know why lately ive been letting other people get to me. i shouldnt. and i wont anymore. Chad moved to atlanta to be with me. He loves ME. its time for me to get that through my thick head.

I trust him. and love him.